Beautifully Broken
I check my phone 100 times in 20 minutes.
I feel like I am going crazy. I feel like I am going crazy.
Obsession takes over my every wanting to know where and what he is doing.
I just want at simple '1 NEW TEXT'
or just to hear his voice. I am obsessed with knowing where he is.
I dont know how it goes from a wonderful day of cleaning, holding each other, passionate kisses to not talking.
For someone who is 30, he seems kind of childish.
I feel 'beautifully broken'
i am just listening to random hate songs, be stronger songs.
But it seems like the I HATE YOU songs are the ones making me feel better.
like some brand new behind the song hate songs.
I just want to figure out what makes him tick.
I can't believe that he takes over my whole life diary.
I just want to burn this page in my head... Pretend it isn't real.
I wish it was easier then it is... like "i know your secret"
... this whole entry... is all about B.
I havent gotten ahold of my boss in a week. I am about sue him unless I get the pictures from the last shoots I did. I am soo irritated with them right now. they are not moving anything. So that means no money. i havent seen anymore in a long while from them.
Urg. I still am checking my phone a hundred times.. and the time never seems to change.
bla. I need a cute boy in my life.
Hmm... maybe something like this.
A cute boy just like him to look me in the eyes.
We will call him BC.
;-) --- if you only knew.
some things make me smile.
I feel like I am going crazy. I feel like I am going crazy.
Obsession takes over my every wanting to know where and what he is doing.
I just want at simple '1 NEW TEXT'
or just to hear his voice. I am obsessed with knowing where he is.
I dont know how it goes from a wonderful day of cleaning, holding each other, passionate kisses to not talking.
For someone who is 30, he seems kind of childish.
I feel 'beautifully broken'
i am just listening to random hate songs, be stronger songs.
But it seems like the I HATE YOU songs are the ones making me feel better.
like some brand new behind the song hate songs.
I just want to figure out what makes him tick.
I can't believe that he takes over my whole life diary.
I just want to burn this page in my head... Pretend it isn't real.
I wish it was easier then it is... like "i know your secret"
... this whole entry... is all about B.
I havent gotten ahold of my boss in a week. I am about sue him unless I get the pictures from the last shoots I did. I am soo irritated with them right now. they are not moving anything. So that means no money. i havent seen anymore in a long while from them.
Urg. I still am checking my phone a hundred times.. and the time never seems to change.
bla. I need a cute boy in my life.
Hmm... maybe something like this.A cute boy just like him to look me in the eyes.
We will call him BC.
;-) --- if you only knew.
some things make me smile.
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